Happy weekend! And happy carb-up day to me! Even if I probably "shouldn't" be taking it after doing an extra one earlier this week with my mini-meltdown. Oh well - I just know to get right back into the swing of things and my plan so I won't try to make up for my negligence a couple days ago. Things are going so much better again. I feel so refreshed and have noticed a BIG change in my attitude and how I am handling prep after refocusing my thoughts on the bigger parts of life ;) I am going to write out my God letter and post it on the fridge with some motivational Bible verses as well to keep this shift in thinking front and center.
In other news, after a complete day of rest yesterday along with LOTS of foam rolling, deep massage, and stretching I am a new woman today and feel so so so much better. I was even able to hit up spin this morning and get a good sweat on. It felt oh so good. Then, this afternoon, I continued to smooth things out -and quite literally. I did my Brazilian trial run! I was SO nervous and afraid it was going to be gruesome pain. But.....it wasn't! At all. It hurt, yeah. But just like waxing eyebrows it was a brief sharp sting that went away immediately. I may consider these being more regular even because it wasn't half bad. So, things are going smoothly here. Pun - intended! Time to keep on grooving.....
Showing posts with label motivation. Show all posts
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Saturday, September 19, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Refocusing
Good morning all! I firstly want to thank you wonderful women for all the support :) It truly means a lot. And while I know the cereal won't kill my progress (as was visible this morning when I could still see all my abs ;) hehe), the thing that concerned me the most is that I was blindly eating and more than I knew was necessary (we are talking a BIG bowl here, with 2nds of that monster to follow). The way I was eating reminded me of how I felt and ate when I used to binge. The amount may have been MUCH less, but still the attitude and approach and thought processes that went into it are what scared the (you know what) out of me. I have not done something so self-sabotaging in so long. Even in times this past year I have eaten a bit more than I should have or eaten something extra/"off-plan" it was never in such a secretive, guilty, spiteful, negative manner. I do NOT want to go back there. I REFUSE to go back there.
So, what now? I realized a few things yesterday after sharing what happened with Peter and talking out my thoughts, hurts, etc. with him. The past couple of months I have been very driven by this competition. No one can deny that planning the food, organizing the details, getting the workouts in, taking time to practice posing/research online/etc etc etc takes a lot out of a person. Despite all that, I have not let this all get in the way of my responsibilities as a wife and mother. Peter says that he doesn't see a difference in attitude or how I treat him, he doesn't see an excessive change in my time with him and M, and overall doesn't notice a change in those general aspects of my life. But deep down, I knew something wasn't right. I knew something wasn't aligned right with my life. And when taking a closer look - it hit me smack hard across the face that what I claim is the most valuable part of my life is what was slipping into the very spare moments I could grab in a day instead of the focus of my day. My relationship with God - my faith.
Now to some that may seem cheesy or superficial. But I can't ignore the fact that every tough time in my life I was only able to come through it by putting it in God's hands and turning my focus back to Him. From small things such as stresses of school or work, to big things like a changing relationship with my father, He has been the only true help I could count on and that would suddenly help everything seem right and manageable. I have to get that part of my life in order so that I can get through the remainder of prep. Otherwise I very well could end up back in a very dark place, which would in the process be spitting in God's face after He has already helped me out of said "dark place". So here goes -
God,
50 days left in this prep. 50. That's it. Right here, right now, I recommit these next 50 days to spending more time growing my faith and getting back to my solid habits that sustain me there. I put my focus on YOU the next 50 days, knowing that by doing so I will make it to that stage fulfilled, happy, with more to my life than pride. These next 50 days will be a whole lot less about me me me and what I can do and whole lot more about YOU and knowing it is only through YOUR will, support, and guidance that I can do anything. I am going to try refocusing how I look at each day. I will begin each day a few minutes earlier so I can have some time to be with You in prayer and get my thoughts aligned with You for the day. I will pray before workouts, before meals, at night after devotional reading with Peter, all day - every chance I get. After all - we are commanded to "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17). I will turn my radio to 104.7 (sidenote to readers: the popular Christian station - and no it isn't all gospely crazy music like you may think - I actually enjoy this music a LOT and its my 1st preprogrammed station anyways - even if I have found myself slipping off it more recently). I will focus more on the lessons I prepare for each Sunday's lesson, instead of just going through the motions to get it done. I give these next 50 days to You, God. Help me use them as a way to honor You. And knowing your great love for me, that You will bless me and honor me in return by putting me on that stage on November 7th strong, confident, happy, and beaming with the love you have for me.
Love, your daughter,
Christina
This may seem tedious to some, but I can guarantee you that if you gave realigning your focus a shot, once you got into the habit it would be seamless and so incredibly worth it. That is the truth for me and that is what I must do now. 50 Days. It's a gift. I must use it wisely. Which even includes resting my back today ;)
So, what now? I realized a few things yesterday after sharing what happened with Peter and talking out my thoughts, hurts, etc. with him. The past couple of months I have been very driven by this competition. No one can deny that planning the food, organizing the details, getting the workouts in, taking time to practice posing/research online/etc etc etc takes a lot out of a person. Despite all that, I have not let this all get in the way of my responsibilities as a wife and mother. Peter says that he doesn't see a difference in attitude or how I treat him, he doesn't see an excessive change in my time with him and M, and overall doesn't notice a change in those general aspects of my life. But deep down, I knew something wasn't right. I knew something wasn't aligned right with my life. And when taking a closer look - it hit me smack hard across the face that what I claim is the most valuable part of my life is what was slipping into the very spare moments I could grab in a day instead of the focus of my day. My relationship with God - my faith.
Now to some that may seem cheesy or superficial. But I can't ignore the fact that every tough time in my life I was only able to come through it by putting it in God's hands and turning my focus back to Him. From small things such as stresses of school or work, to big things like a changing relationship with my father, He has been the only true help I could count on and that would suddenly help everything seem right and manageable. I have to get that part of my life in order so that I can get through the remainder of prep. Otherwise I very well could end up back in a very dark place, which would in the process be spitting in God's face after He has already helped me out of said "dark place". So here goes -
God,
50 days left in this prep. 50. That's it. Right here, right now, I recommit these next 50 days to spending more time growing my faith and getting back to my solid habits that sustain me there. I put my focus on YOU the next 50 days, knowing that by doing so I will make it to that stage fulfilled, happy, with more to my life than pride. These next 50 days will be a whole lot less about me me me and what I can do and whole lot more about YOU and knowing it is only through YOUR will, support, and guidance that I can do anything. I am going to try refocusing how I look at each day. I will begin each day a few minutes earlier so I can have some time to be with You in prayer and get my thoughts aligned with You for the day. I will pray before workouts, before meals, at night after devotional reading with Peter, all day - every chance I get. After all - we are commanded to "pray without ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17). I will turn my radio to 104.7 (sidenote to readers: the popular Christian station - and no it isn't all gospely crazy music like you may think - I actually enjoy this music a LOT and its my 1st preprogrammed station anyways - even if I have found myself slipping off it more recently). I will focus more on the lessons I prepare for each Sunday's lesson, instead of just going through the motions to get it done. I give these next 50 days to You, God. Help me use them as a way to honor You. And knowing your great love for me, that You will bless me and honor me in return by putting me on that stage on November 7th strong, confident, happy, and beaming with the love you have for me.
Love, your daughter,
Christina
This may seem tedious to some, but I can guarantee you that if you gave realigning your focus a shot, once you got into the habit it would be seamless and so incredibly worth it. That is the truth for me and that is what I must do now. 50 Days. It's a gift. I must use it wisely. Which even includes resting my back today ;)
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Happy Birthday Baby Michael Cooper
Time to post up my wrap-up for the day. I am having to do it earlier than usual since I will be gone until later tonight. Anyhoo - I woke up this morning to rain, a general groggy feeling, a VERY hungry tummy.....and minimal motivation. Uh-oh!! Not a good combination by any means. I found myself considering how "bad" a bowl of cereal and a rest day would be for me after I finished my morning oats and while feeding Makenzie. Then, I really took the time to THINK about how I was feeling and knew it was something that could be pushed through. So, I took a moment of prayer, asking for strength and was able to find it and get myself to the gym and away from the kitchen cupboard. I did a chest and back training session and it went very well. Topped that off with some cardio. And have now been going through the rest of the day as normal.
The day wasn't 100% normal though. My sister-in-law went into labor late last night/early this morning, and my nephew Michael Cooper was born this afternoon. So I will be heading out once Peter gets home from work to go and visit them all in the hospital. She delivered at the same place I did, so I imagine it will be sort of surreal going back there, considering it was already basically a YEAR ago that I was there giving birth to my doll Makenzie. Due to this excursion I will have to be getting dinner on the road. I am opting for a ChickFilA grilled chicken salad with no cheese and bringing my own dressing already measured out to the gram. ;) Still fits perfectly in my macros so all is good there. I am ON and plan on staying ON!!!
Macros - 131 Carbs / 138 Protein / 34 Fat
meal 1 = oats, dried mixed fruit, All the Whey cinnamon bun protein
meal 2 = southwest eggbeater & mushroom scramble, apple, maple TJ's sausage
meal 3 = ground turkey/salsa/ff cheese/taco season, cucumbers, strawberries
meal 4 = All the Whey chocolate protein & 8oz chocolate unsweet almond milk, pb
meal 5 = CFA Grilled Chicken Salad, 2T Newmans Own Honey Mustard dressing
meal 6 (dessert!) = oatmeal iced cookie Lunabar
Superset 1
BB Row
12x65# / 10x75# / 3sets 8x85#
BB Bench
12x75# / 10x85# / 3sets 8x95#
Superset 2
Hammerstrength High Row
10x40#,side / 3sets 10x45#,side
Hammerstrength Decline Press
12x30#,side / 8x35#,side / 2sets 6x40#,side
Superset 3
Cable Row
10x85# / 10x90# / 8x95# / 6x100#
Incline DB Flyes
4sets 10x20#,side
Superset 4
DB Row
3sets 12x30#,side
DB Bench
3sets 10x30#,side
Cardio - 15min uphill intervals & 15min steady state
intervals = 30sec @ 3.5 / 60sec @ 7.5 all with 5.5 incline
steady state = elliptical 60-70 rpm level 5
The day wasn't 100% normal though. My sister-in-law went into labor late last night/early this morning, and my nephew Michael Cooper was born this afternoon. So I will be heading out once Peter gets home from work to go and visit them all in the hospital. She delivered at the same place I did, so I imagine it will be sort of surreal going back there, considering it was already basically a YEAR ago that I was there giving birth to my doll Makenzie. Due to this excursion I will have to be getting dinner on the road. I am opting for a ChickFilA grilled chicken salad with no cheese and bringing my own dressing already measured out to the gram. ;) Still fits perfectly in my macros so all is good there. I am ON and plan on staying ON!!!
Macros - 131 Carbs / 138 Protein / 34 Fat
meal 1 = oats, dried mixed fruit, All the Whey cinnamon bun protein
meal 2 = southwest eggbeater & mushroom scramble, apple, maple TJ's sausage
meal 3 = ground turkey/salsa/ff cheese/taco season, cucumbers, strawberries
meal 4 = All the Whey chocolate protein & 8oz chocolate unsweet almond milk, pb
meal 5 = CFA Grilled Chicken Salad, 2T Newmans Own Honey Mustard dressing
meal 6 (dessert!) = oatmeal iced cookie Lunabar
Superset 1
BB Row
12x65# / 10x75# / 3sets 8x85#
BB Bench
12x75# / 10x85# / 3sets 8x95#
Superset 2
Hammerstrength High Row
10x40#,side / 3sets 10x45#,side
Hammerstrength Decline Press
12x30#,side / 8x35#,side / 2sets 6x40#,side
Superset 3
Cable Row
10x85# / 10x90# / 8x95# / 6x100#
Incline DB Flyes
4sets 10x20#,side
Superset 4
DB Row
3sets 12x30#,side
DB Bench
3sets 10x30#,side
Cardio - 15min uphill intervals & 15min steady state
intervals = 30sec @ 3.5 / 60sec @ 7.5 all with 5.5 incline
steady state = elliptical 60-70 rpm level 5
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